your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always

And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights, I hate them
Lets start this again for real

u ever cared about someone so much even tho that person never shows that they care back and u just get hurt trying to show that person that u love them and care about them so much the only way to stop getting hurt is to drop it even tho u dont want to drop it and forget about that person so bad that u start to get confused on what to do that u just lose ur mind and say fuck every one and every thing  and then u feel better about it for 2 days and then after the 2 days u feel like shit and u know u still love that person and know u want that person back even tho the dont show that they care and u end up back in the same spot and u just get lost in ur what to think cuz u just lose ur friends careing so much about some person that u think is worth it and u end up not careing about anything besides that one person that ur mind thinks it knows nothing is going to happen cuz u think that the world is perfect when ur with that one person and u never want to let it go ull give up everything to make that person happy and it just never seems to work but u just try and try and it just messes with ur head about what to do what to think and u just lose it and cry about it and laugh about it all at the say time ur emoitons just get confused on what to feel and they just go crazy not controlable  and then u sit in ur house fighting with ur self cuz one side of u know u want that person back so bad but yet on the other side u know that u will just end up hurt to much to risk  trying again so u just sit there smokeing a cig hopeing ur life will just go by and hope this feelin will just get over the fact that its just emoitons  its just one person to how much other ppl r out there but ur head thinks that  the one person that u feel like the world is peaseful and quite and ur so happy inside iam not jsut saying u look happy on the outside just cuz ur stoned iam talking about being happy on the inside  so happy u just cant help but look at that person and smile and say u love them and kiss them but u know all this happiness is just a fantsy ull never have it people these days r 2 faced they r backstabers even tho u know them for the longest time they can be ur bestfriend but ppl r just the way the world these days makes them its the influence and the best thing is to do is not to trust anyone to much cuz u dont want to put ur trust in the wrong place like i have done cuz ur just risking  getin stabed in the back by who u less suspect it could be ur best frined it could be the person u have loved and would give up everthing for it could be ur mom ur dad ur brother ur sister u have now clue who it could be..............            

iam so bored well yea idk what to think anymore like i ever knew for sure what to think

well todays friday the big day so ill see who ever is going tonight to see what happens ethier i get killed or they dont say nothing to me or doing anything so ppl who wish for me to live leave me comments lol